Then the Lord will take care of me.
November is a month to reflect on all we have to be thankful for. It is adoption month and today is Orphan Sunday. This post has come at such an appropriate time.
Thank You Jesus that our Morris is one less orphan. We are so proud of him. He is truly amazing.
We have been home with our sweet Morris for almost six months and I am able to reflect on all I have to be thankful for.
Writing this post has not been without tears. God has been exceedingly good. He has poured out in a way I never knew possible. He has shown me glimpses of the way thankfulness opens a heart to more and more of Him and the beauty of His pure heart.
Jesus thank You for stripping me of all I've perceived myself to be and showing me who I really am. A sinner who needs a savior every moment of everyday. A wretch that need's to cling to the cross and freely receive forgiveness and freely forgive.
A blind man that needs to see more of You.
A human that needs Your love to be able to give it out.
One that can not perceive the things of God this alone is humbling. A life with a heart that is hard without Christ. A person that will never be perfect and yet that is o.k. because in God alone I am asked to find my strength and identity. In Jesus I am able to find all that I need. In Him alone I am able to be made new, made pure, and able to conquer. He is able to make up for all the ways I lack. He covers all I mess up and is glorified in my weak life. Thank You Jesus. Thank You for forgiveness and the freedom it brings. The way it washes away and brings healing. The way it restores.
Though our journey to Morris seems not long ago it is as though He has been with us always. His precious life has been in the hands of Jesus and I see the way God has tenderly watched over him and cared for him. I am thankful….
Thankful He has preserved our precious boys life and brought him to our family. Though his life has not been without loss and heartache Morris has shown to be so very brave, strong, and able to love and receive love. He loves to love. Our Morris has a tender heart with such an innocence that in ways reflects Jesus..... I am so very thankful for child like faith and the way children are able to love.
Morris has left all he has ever known and though it was not ideal it was familiar. It was his normal. This is something I will never truly understand. In my lack of understanding thank You Jesus for the compassion You give and the glimpses You give us into his sweet little heart. Without You Lord my love would be based off feelings, emotions, it would be conditional, a shallow love that can not help or heal. Not really love at all.
Thank You for Your pure love that heals and brings life. Thank You Lord that You alone are love....I am learning love is a choice, love is sacrifice, selfless, and restores all that is lost. Your love is unconditional and beautiful. Your perfect love casts out all fear and oh, how I've seen this throughout our journey.
Thank You Jesus for our little boy You brought from the other side of the world...he has enriched our lives and taken us deeper in our relationship with You.
Jesus You have shown us the only way to go deeper in our relationship with You is for us to be put in situations where we have to cling to You fully with all that we are and though it can be hard yes, oh yes, I am so thankful. Thankful for each night my boy is home with us tucked in his bed and I don't have to wonder what he is doing because I know.
Each morning he crawls from his bed to mine and lavishes his snuggles and kisses on me.
Each time he says "I Lu (love) you mommy". Each time I hear him playing and laughing with his "dede" (brother) and "sissy". How he amazes me in that not long ago he did not even know what a family was and now he works hard everyday to contribute to his family. He works hard to follow rules and to please his parents with a sense of belonging. I have to remind him that even if he does something wrong I will always love him. I am blessed by his spirit of contentment and humility. I am blessed by his smile that is contagious and his joy that spreads. Thankful for how quick he is to forgive and the compassion he has on others and the way he freely gives love.
He is conquering his fear a day at a time with his security in our love and his sense of belonging.
He now has a family that supports him and stands behind him and rejoices in his accomplishments. He now has a brother and sister that fight over sitting next to him at the dinner table, hug, and kiss him everyday and are shaped into better little people by learning to share and die to themselves. Oh, how thankful I am to see first hand how Gods love takes a feeble little child with deep fear and gives confidence and peace.
I am thankful to see Morris with his daddy. The way he looks up to him and finds confidence in his love.
I praise and thank You Jesus for
when Morris sings "I love my daddy and mommy. I love my sissy and dede" with such joy in his heart. The way he prays to Jesus with his child like faith always saying Jesus thank you for...
Jesus thank You for all that I get to see Morris accomplish and each day spent with my husband and each of my children.
Jesus thank You for our precious Morris' birth mother who chose life.
I have moments of complete grief as I reflect on the years I missed in Morris' life until sweet Jesus softly and tenderly reminds me that this is His plan and His purpose. I have shed many tears thinking of how Morris' birth parents will never see his gentle spirit so full of life and love yet in my tears I am reminded of this beautiful verse
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; Before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations.”
And I am encouraged in God's promises.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Thank You Jesus for Your word and the truth it brings, the way it transforms our minds and hearts and guides us in this journey of life.
Thank You for life, and how You treasure each one.
Thank You that this life is not my own it is Yours.
My heart is full filled to overflowing with thankfulness for a great God who is always good!